This picture was in my Facebook News Feed today…

(photo by the incredible Kim Burke, www.kdburkephotography.com)

The photo was posted, along with a blog…Power of Prayer.

What a wonderful young couple.

What struck me…

Like a lightening bolt…this could be hubby and I on our wedding day! As I am writing the Letting Go series memories flit through my mind…sometimes I can catch them and remember bits and pieces.

This pushed me to look for the few photos that I have saved from that day. Most of them have been tossed into the rubbish as I tried to forget, but a few were relegated to the bottom of a box placed under the bed, out of view.

Me, the excited Bride, getting ready to toss the bouquet.

Me and Jane

Hubby and I.

The man in the blog…Power of Prayer….

Is the man that I thought I was marrying. A man as dedicated to his wife as he is to his God and Country. A man that would protect and guide me through our married life. A man that would be there in the bad times as well as the good.

I cannot blame hubby for not being the man that I thought. I blame myself for marrying too quickly. For not sitting down with myself and making sure I was doing the right thing. I did not ask myself the hard questions, I am not sure that I asked myself many questions at all.

No, we did not sit down and pray together before our ceremony. But we did pray with our families at the rehearsal dinner, and I did a lot of praying prior to taking our vows.

The biggest difference between our wedding and the bride and groom in the photo above…I never asked God if this is what He wanted. If this is the life He had planned for me. I asked for His blessings…but how could I expect to be blessed when I did not ask for guidance?

The Letting Go Series…

Is all about telling the story of my past…to clear the way for my future. It is my story. It is my pain. It is about my memories.

It is also a way for me to see how I could have done things differently. Better, than I did.

If I can figure out how I should have handled things, admit to my mistakes, I can do better in the future.

Hiding these parts of my life away does not serve anyone, most of all, it does not serve me.

If I can let go…

I can teach my children better. I can walk them through life. I can ask them more questions. Questions that will lead them to question themselves and their actions.

Hopefully this exploration into my past will not only heal me, it will enable me to lead and guide my children into a brighter, fuller future.

xoxooxox,

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